fuck bitch ass FUCK
I say curse words at the most inappropriate moments, and I am going to STOP, starting NOW. It’s so unflattering and unladylike, and being inspired by an episode of MADE (shutup, it was amazing) has slapped those realizations in my face. I WILL stop. There’s so much to do in one month! I still haven’t read Pride and Prejudice or registered for driver’s ed yet, let alone done any decent working out. I’ve gotten myself sick, my layers are really not a big deal (yeah I’m not over it, SO WHAT), and despite all that, this is the best summer ever. Since my parents have realized that I’m actually not 6 years old anymore, they’ve been a bit loser on how much I can go hang with the friends. Although, I’m not allowed to date until I’m 50. Thanks Mom and Dad! My cousin-to-be has invited me to a bridal expo! I’m not sure what to expect, but it sounds pretty exciting! My friend Eric has invited me to watch The Dark Knight with a bunch of friends in celebration of his birthday, but it turns out another guy we all know has his birthday on the same day and has invited a lot of the people Eric has. That’s unfortunate. I’m sick of going to the mall. It’s no fun if you are broke and can’t buy anything! I can’t believe time is flying so quickly. In about a year I’ll be going job hunting! It seems like many people turn to lifeguarding over the summer. That would be totally awesome if I could actually swim properly and not be self conscious about my pubescent tween body (haha). I was thinking about the friends I have, and I’ve realized some of them are more like acquaintances – even the ones I’ve considered my BFFLS for a very long time. They don’t know much about my life, and I don’t know much about theirs. I feel like we hang out because we’d have no other place to go if we weren’t friends with each other. It sounds superficial, but that’s how I feel. I also feel like I say I would like to do something (stop cursing, stop judging) and then I forget about those things when the situation pops up. I really must make an effort to think before I speak; seriously – no matter who I am around, whether it be my best friend or worst enemy, I’ve gotta stop the foul language and harsh judgments. No one deserves to be talked about or gossiped in a mean way behind his or her back. It’s not nice, and it won’t bring me forward. Well, it’s four in the morning again and I have yet to sleep (as usual).
Hope all you people in the world are having a wild time!
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